Save Me

Arghh! Any motivation that I didn't have at the weekend has some how warped itself into an even bigger black hole of infinite misery today, as I struggle even to get out of bed in time for the UPS man to turn up and take some parcels away.

This is no fun, none whatsoever and I've no idea why it is I feel like I do (ok, well I may have an inkling but I don't see the point of divulging it here). It's the most unusual thing this "can't be bothered" attitude I've had over the past few days - things that I would quite merrily occupy myself with seemed to have withered into non-appealing, time wasting and uninspirational and I wish I could just kick myself in the butt to snap out of it. But today, alas, it seems I can't even be bothered to do that!

The day is broken up sufficiently enough for me not to end up hugging myself in a dark corner of the bedroom whilst rocking back and forth and mumbling insanely to myself. At lunch I do something new - I've never cooked an omelet before (I know, how bizarre!) so I attempt that with quite a bit of success. Apparently the secret is to no over whisk the eggs before you put them in the pan so the omelet is nice and fluffy in the middle.

I also have 2 delivery guys show up, one with a surprise parcel from iwantoneofthose.com which turned out to be a rather cool pressy from my friends in the states, and the other finally delivered a pair of jeans that I'd ordered yonks ago and had almost forgotten about.

To waste a couple more hours I go for a snooze. The bed just looked so appealing. The sun is shining through the window and it's nice and warm. So what initially was "just an hour" turned into a 180 minute luxurious kip marathon, and I woke up just in time to get dinner started.

It's pasta bake again (trying to clear out the clutter from the back of the larder) and a bit of TV. Not my usual viewing since the BBC decided to flood their main channel with football, but enough to keep me occupied.

Posted by Abi on the August 9, 2005 9:23 PM

sjon at August 11, 2005 7:04 AM