Conundrum

Today, as often occurs with days that I'm not in work I quickly run out of things to do after a morning of activity.

I spend the best part of the pre-PM hours in the garden. I mow the lawn (and after realising the blade wasn't level) re-mowing the law, and generally tidy up outside. I also plant the two thyme plants that I'd grown from seed - one in the front flower bed, the other in the back garden. They'd outgrown their pots ages ago, and it seemed a shame to lob them in the garden recycling bin. From experience I know that they are pretty hardy, dying off a little in the winter but then sprouting back in the spring - so hopefully they will grown into some nice fragrant bushes next year.

The triops have also hatched, there are about 5 of the blighters swimming around in the tank we set up, and although tiny at the moment I've a feeling it won't take long for them to grow, and then probably eat each other until there is one sole victor. If that's the case I've already decided to call it Brutus. A suitable name for a carnivorous tank dweller I feel!

So that leaves the afternoon for me to twiddle my thumbs, and yet again I get around to thinking what it is I want to do with my life in general (in all honesty its a thought thats been running around in my head for a week or 2 now). Mainly its a career thing. Do I want to stay in computers, or do I want to turn my back on it completely? I honestly don't know.

The problem is somewhat exasperated by the fact that I'm currently in a position whereby I could try anything if I was willing to train or just jump in at the deep end. I've also got enough financial backing to do a broad spectrum of possibilities, from setting up on my own or investing in another company. So you see the choices are not easily limited (except perhaps geographical location) which means for a person such as myself who finds decision making a pain in the ass unless it's critical, is suddenly confronted with a whole barrage of options. I can't see the wood for the trees.

Don't get me wrong, I KNOW I'm in a lucky position and I KNOW I shouldn't complain about the fact, but seriously... I wish sometimes I could make a big decision and stick to it, rather than making the decision, thinking its a great plan and then decide there might be a better decision rather than the one I'd made already.

Confused? Welcome to my club.. or should that be group, maybe sect or perhaps faction...?

Posted by Abi on the September 20, 2005 10:36 PM